Wednesday, May 26, 2010
Two days ago on Facebook I declared, “Ooh, ooh, I gotta new attitude!” and I’m happy to report that the new attitude is still hanging around. I’ve been trying for months (and especially the last three weeks) to change my attitude back to the positive, happy frame of mind I am used to, but up until now, I haven’t been successful. What’s different this time? Well, I found inspiration in some surprising places.
First, my whine, whine blogs and status updates on Facebook brought in a slew of comments and emails that were so encouraging and that helped me to remember that we all go through tough times and we do come out okay on the other side. Second, this past weekend I finished reading a book that my friend Jill gave me the day after my surgery. The book, The Pulpwood Queens’ Tiara-Wearing, Book-Sharing Guide to Life by Kathy L. Patrick, is a combination memoir, book list and inspirational self-help. Kathy’s upbeat attitude, her self-described Queenliness and her penchant for wearing a tiara reminded me of myself. I read this book thinking, Wow! That sounds like the “old me”; I want to be that “me” again! And then, third, I found inspiration in the most surprising place of all – in me! Sunday evening I read back through some of the blogs I’d written in late 2008 and early 2009 when I was caring for my ill and dying mother-in-law (another tough time in my life). I was amazed by my perspective and the calmness I felt throughout that time. I was surprised to remember how much I liked the slower, quiet pace forced on me by having to be with my mother-in-law 24/7. While I’ve been happy with the amount of work I’ve been able to do during this surgery recuperation period, I forgot to look at this quiet time in a positive way. Heck, I’ve forgotten to look at life, in general, in a positive way. Hearing from friends, reading a book that sounded like the “old me” and then reading words actually written by the “old me” helped push my attitude right back in the direction from where it originally came. Ooh, ooh, I think I’ve rediscovered my old attitude!