It's New Year's Day of the year when I will turn fifty. My husband keeps asking me why I'm making such a big deal of this (he, too, turns fifty this year). I guess it's because I remember, as a much younger person, looking ahead to 2008 and thinking, I'll be fifty then; I'll be old! Yet, I don't feel old now and I'm more than a little surprised that I'll actually be fifty soon.
With the New Year comes, of course, the New Year's Resolutions. My resolutions aren't much different than they have been for several years: weight loss/control, more time for myself, write more, learn to play the drums. However, this year I feel a bit more pressed about actually making them happen. I know how quickly the years pass by and I realize that at some point I need to actually do these things or I'll be on my deathbed wishing that I'd done more.
After a decade of regular exercise and food management, I took off the month of December. It started with a trip to S. Korea when exercise time was not available. I returned on December 8th and promptly threw out my back so that I wasn't able to exercise for more than a week. At that point I decided to just relax about both exercise and food for the rest of the month. Relax meant that I didn't allow guilt into the picture. It was a blissful time. I ate what I wanted, when I wanted. I spent my early morning hours curled up in a chair with a cup of strong coffee and a book rather than working out in our exercise room. I gained ten pounds and I don't feel bad about it all! However, I was thrilled to jump on the treadmill for 45 minutes this morning and to follow that workout with a brisk walk outside with my husband and my two big dogs. I was also thrilled to eat a healthy, tasty breakfast that fits within my daily nutrition plan. It was good to take time off and to not allow guilty feelings to enter the picture, but it is also good to get back to a lifestyle that promotes the health and wellness I thrive on.
My other resolutions are part of my continuing desire to grow. This blog is a big part of my action plan both to create more time for myself and to write more. I've signed up for a "Girls Rock" weekend in October where I hope to get a chance at the drums, not to mention the drumming I do when my kids and I turn on the Rock Band game on one of my son's game systems. As I approach the age of fifty, I feel so much younger than I thought I would. I feel good about myself, I like who I am and I'm excited to find out who I will be.